Tuesday, April 28 @ 12:01 AM
How you made me feel when I was in my lowest point in life last month and then last week happened. Thanks, now I have trust issues. All along, I've been devastated on why you left. Now I know the truth, you left me thinking if everything was a lie. Or when did it even start how everything became a lie? Don't you ever play with my feelings again. Prove to me you can live a truthful life. Tho I hope it's favorable. But I guess we both know the answer all along... And everything makes me sick.
It's killing me. Reality hurts. It's just a matter of time and everything will fall into places again. I can't sleep. Been in a state of insomnia for days now.
Thursday, April 23 @ 12:21 AM
"It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again."
Labels: sad, tsk
Wednesday, April 22 @ 11:51 PM
Here's a recap from my previous blog layout. It's been almost a year since I had it, but I think it's time to make a new one. Enjoy.
Labels: bored, catherine joy tugap, cathypurry, catziee, wai lingaw
Every morning it's always been like this. I want this to stop but how could I fool myself from what I actually feel. I'd like to share some excerpt from the movie I like: Best of Me:
Sunday, April 19 @ 10:10 AM
All right, Amanda. Listen to me. I wanted to do something good. And I wanted to save you from some of the pain.
- You didn't save me from anything. I lived with the pain every day of my life, Dawson, and I blame you. I blame you for thinking you knew what was best for me when it was you that was best for me.
I know. I couldn't have you wait for me. There was so much you wanted to do.
- But I wanted to do it with you. And I would have waited for as long as it took.
I didn't deserve you, Amanda.
- Oh, deserve me? Jesus, Dawson. Don't you understand? When I had Jared, and I know this is wrong, but do you know that when I had him I wanted to tell you. And when I lost Bea... I wanted you to hold me. And when I was alone at night, I wanted... I wanted you and I cried for you and I hated you and I hated you because... because I would have chosen you no matter what, and you took that away from me.
I made a mistake.
- Yes, you did.
I did. I hurt you.
- But see, I still love you.
I still love you.
I know this has to stop. But I couldn't and I won't. Even if it would take me months or years.
Labels: rant, sad, tsk