Sunday, February 22 @ 3:47 AM 
How ironic was the previous post to this one. How could a nightmare be dressed like a daydream? As what Taylor said, "You can tell me when it's over if the high was worth the pain." 

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Wednesday, February 18 @ 9:17 AM 
HAHAHAHA this is one of the corniest post ever. But I feel like I'm obliged to at least share it in away he's not given enough credit in the blog about his "goodness" siguro. Because I only feel like posting when I'm being a drama queen from our fights and etc... LOL.

I don't know what to say because he's full of shit. HAHA Kidding! :* :) I think we have this love-hate kind of relationship and I don't freaking know how to deal with this xD Since I can't seem to come  up with any topic, I'd like to share what I did to mah valentino last chuchu.

EDI WOW! HAHA I woke up receiving this text. And it's freaking hilarious. 

What he doesn't know that morning I'm finalizing my gift thingy ew for him. I think what pushed me to do this is the fact he's my first valentino..? And I wanted it to be special? so ew. LOL.

(char blur aron ignon. haha)

Since he somewhat gave me a kind of journal before, where I'd write all my thoughts etc, I'd like to repay him by giving him a journal, too since he doesn't really have any outlet to express his feelings especially when he's so frustrated (and doesn't have any blog to write all about it lol). So instead of tweeting it chuchu, he now possess this thing and I hope he makes good use of it! Since he claim himself as a writer. HAHA lel.

Well A for Ayfort! I printed out all the memorable convos we have. HAHA ewww. Feb 13 was officially our anniversary since we started texting daw feb 13 last 2014. char dawbe. 

Praaamis. He's so freaking snob at ALL times. *rolls eyes* But even though he's like that... he's like that. HAHA. Because at the end of the day,.... he's still... snob. HAHA joke lang bae :* That's why DAW things like this ends up about me not appreciating his efforts even in the simplest way. char *rolls eyes again* Lage lage, we already talked about this naman pud pero ambot :P

That thing I made is sooo cute that I wanted to keep it and hang it on my wall T____T I regretted why I gave that haha k.

I don't know what's the point of this post. But based from all the past, heartbreaking posts I wrote, I just want to acknowledge that life is a roller coaster ride. Even from all those moments I (or we) wanted to give up, we still found a reason to stay and overcome those obstacles. And oh, I'm glad he's my bestfriend. :)


♥ Cathypurry

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Saturday, February 7 @ 6:35 AM 
Funny how dreams are so deceiving. I dreamt of you txting me what's wrong, asking for forgiveness why it's like this. I woke up crying because it was only just a dream. :'( It has been a week already. It hurts because you did't do anything about it. I cried for a week now. Acting everyday that it was okay. Pretending to be happy when inside I'm drowning. Knowing that everything changed you didn't even asked why it was like this. Didn't even bother to talk about it. It takes two to tango as what they say. And it is killing me inside that you didn't do anything to make it okay. :'( If it works, it works. But I am now thinking otherwise. And this morning I'll cry all my heart out. Just like any other nights that I will cry 'till my tears run dry and fall back to sleep.

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Sunday, February 1 @ 9:06 PM 
From now on things will be different.

I'm too focused on prioritizing this person over the others that I tend to overlook those people who also cares for me. It's sad to say I always felt like seeking his attention. But then reality had slapped me really hard that it was never the same. 

From now on things will be different.

For he can't always be there for me when I am in misery. I have been always thinking what is favorable for him, exerting all those efforts that he tends to ignore. But then reality had slapped me really hard that it was never the same.

From now on things will be different.

I have tried my best and so far I'm doing well in balancing my aspects in life. Gestures I've always seeked only tend to happen if something goes wrong. Unlike when everything feels so settled, I can't feel anything. But it's just sad to see that the apple of my eye doesn't think otherwise.

From now on things will be different.

Don't worry, things will never change the way we are. It's just sad to realize the reality that things just feels so one sided. As what I've said long before, actions now matter. But those simple gestures that you care for my well being, after dropping you a lot of hints earlier, you just tend to ignore. You just push me away when I am around. Don't be so defensive because it's the truth. And it hurts because it mattered.

From now on things will be different.

Don't be sad. There are just some things that will never change and I have long accepted at last, when reality had slapped me hard. 

I promised myself that I will not cry anymore. But here I am in this state at the first day of the month. Tsk. Can I not feel this way again, please? :'(


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