AT THIS MOMENT I'M JUST FO FCKING MAD. I DON'T KNOW THE EXACT REASON BUT ANYWAY...
Monday, January 20 @ 7:01 PM
I remembered before I made a hatred poem and whenever I'll feel angry, I'll just read it because it says it all. AND today I'm just so angry that I decided to search it and read it again.
The second one is NOT hell all about that but the feels' of hatred-ness says it all.
Some poems are just full of wonders. Lol. But in that post, I poured all the accumulated hatred I felt inside. What amazes me is that it was made Almost a YEAR AGO! January 30 --- and today is January 20! I think there's some kind of curse about this. I will not be surprised if next year, January 10, I'll feel it again.
I think this is just an accumulated anger not from a specific person but also for the others. There were some hurtful words I've encountered for the past 2 days. I've been used to every words that's been thrown to me since I was in elementary. But what struck it all the most was that person you thought was respectful and full of discipline was not like that after all.
You will never do a prank without any solution. I've even painted only the pinky finger. But anyways, you could throw any words at me just NOT that Y word to ANY girl. Since that incident, I will never look at that person the same way before. No person ever did that. And yes, I'm having these 'tears of anger' now.
But whatever. Sadness set aside. Life goes on. Wherever this will take, come what may. But not now. Just not now. It's still fresh. And it will always hurt.
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