Monday, November 25 @ 6:03 PM
I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger now, or so I say,
But something's missing
Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream
What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Oh, oh, oh, oh! What now?
I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And he just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again
There's no one to call 'cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone
'Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know oh oh why
You know that feeling when you have given up this certain aspect in your life to focus on another one (acads) but theeeen it bounces back to you again and tempts you to come back!?!? I've had enough with last sem.. like I have so many.... uh, how do you put this. Nvm. You get my point?
That moment when you already decided to lie low with those things but then people pushes you for it! I don't get why life has to be like this -_____- Making up stories about team ups and other people teasing you for it. Bastaaa, I don't know. Like the song, I'm numb again.
WHAT NOWWW?? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL!
Maybe I just have to take things really slow~ I must control the situation! Whatever, wherever this takes me, it's my decision after all. Wew.
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