Monday, November 25 @ 6:03 PM
I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger now, or so I say,
But something's missing
Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream
What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Oh, oh, oh, oh! What now?
I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And he just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again
There's no one to call 'cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone
'Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know oh oh why
You know that feeling when you have given up this certain aspect in your life to focus on another one (acads) but theeeen it bounces back to you again and tempts you to come back!?!? I've had enough with last sem.. like I have so many.... uh, how do you put this. Nvm. You get my point?
That moment when you already decided to lie low with those things but then people pushes you for it! I don't get why life has to be like this -_____- Making up stories about team ups and other people teasing you for it. Bastaaa, I don't know. Like the song, I'm numb again.
WHAT NOWWW?? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL!
Maybe I just have to take things really slow~ I must control the situation! Whatever, wherever this takes me, it's my decision after all. Wew.
Labels: catziee, crazy, friends, love, rant, school
Friday, November 8 @ 10:31 PM
Lately I've been so happy. It's a happiness overload! It all started when I passed our major, Cost 1! We have three Accounting major subjects but you know why this subject is such a big deal? Because if you fail, then you have to extend your stay in the University and study for another year again. Well, Cost 1 is a prerequisite subject for a second sem and some fourth year subjects. So, you know where I'm getting at this, right? Unlike the other two subjects, you could just overload it. And baby, I passed all of my subjects! That's why it's a HAPPPEEEEEH LIFE!
But you know, there's still a second sem and a fourth year. Though a victory such as this gave me a foundation of confidence! It is true though as what they say, when you reach your Third year in Accountancy you will have a mortal life. Even if you fail, all you need is to retake the subject and you don't need to shift. BUT as usual, it's easier said than done. Actually, failing is a major flop. You need to think of your academic records! And by that, I mean the transcript!
So anyways, I've been watching romantic comedy films lately. Well what I'm going to share is not related to those films but the will to bump to my blog again and write a new post is a help. And it's Friday today and I found myself doing what I used to do and that is... layouting! Web layout. But above mention is not related again to what I'm gonna share.
It's a social networking night life for us, new generation. So as I was browsing/scanning through Facebook, I realized one thing! All I could say was "AWWWWW". I can't help but think how those total strangers; like from other courses, is now part of our lives! Aww :3 It is so cute to think that those people you used to admire from afar are now your friends. They know you and you became part of their lives and also their social networking lives. Do you get what I'm saying? THE FEELS. And that is why it's a happy life! ^------^
You know... well there's an easier root-thought about that and basically this is how it goes: Kanang feeling nga crush nimo kay imong maamigo. AWWWW THE FEELS. ^-----------^ HEHEHE
But that's not the purpose of my post dear reader (if I have though). The bottom line is: in the road we call Life we go on detours and meet people we never thought we'll meet. They may leave happy or sad stories but one thing's for sure, they're part of our memories.
And what I always say to my friends, "SMILE NA! LABLABLBAB. HAPPY ANG LIFE!" :)
Labels: catziee, friends, happy, happy day, school, wai lingaw